oh dear, i don't know what i'm slowly getting myself into right now but god fucking damnit i like it. better yet. i love it. it all feels so right to me. and all i feel is happiness and love completely overwhelming and as i look around at the situation that was once left on the floor i don't see the situation anymore because all the bullshit is gone now. theres alot of shit i need to get done for the next year or two. and until then i know that we can finally work it all out. i had a great conversation last night. that cleared everything up. cleared it alllll up. where all old grudges were completely gone. where everything is finally okay. and i'm happy about this. i'm okay. and now i truly understand it all. and i was so wrong. god damn was i wrong. at least i finally figured it out