wow what a fucking month man. finally graduated!!! HELL YEAH! anyways this is a little drunk buzz post so whatever. i haven't had any of these posts since my fucking livejoural days so what the fuck WHY NOT?! hhahahaha anyways alot of shit going on in my life right now. but i'm happy the way it is. i'm happy i'm not naive anymore. i'm happy i had an epiphany. i'm free from the bullshit. free from the pain. free from absolutely everything. and its exactly how i want it and need it. i'm so over everything. isn't it funny how all my posts before this i was so madly in love or something? but what the fuck man. through all the shit i've been through. its not even worth it anymore. but who knows. maybe i'm feeling like this right now but i don't know. sometimes i want a fucking good enough reason to finally just leave for good. its almost like my stuck but i'm not stuck. and i just want to be happy and thats about it. i don't want anybody. i just want to be the original fucking lisa park. and the past few days thats exactly what i'm doing and it feels good to be myself again. thursday was a hotel party friday was another party and another hotel party and now TONIGHt was fucking EPIC!!! party hopped all night long while screaming and singing in the car like i was a fucking kid and just had a fucking bomb ass time while being fucked up all night and partying. i haven't had that much fun in sooo long. last time i could remember was like a couple or few years ago. BUT DAMN it feels good to be myself again. i think getting off the nuva ring helped me with everything. and its fucking awesome. i don't know where the fuck my mentality went the past year or so but its back to normal and i love it this way because now i finally feel like myself. for so long i didn't know what happened to me... like.. the real me... its weird and its hard to explain but i'm glad i'm back. and i'm happy. and everything is going to be OKAY. like i always told myself. if it wasn't meant to be then it wasn't meant to be. and if it was then shit i guess it was. anyway summer has finally started and i'm so HAPPY about that!!! UGH and havasu trip coming up!? HELL YEAH hahahahha good shit good shit. anyways i'm still FUCKING buzzed and its awesome. but i think its time for me to end this post cuz its awfully long. i don't have many pictures right now cuz i suck at life ;] tehehe but its ALL GOOOD! anyways GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY!!!!!