wow i'm already yawning and it is quite early. oh blog i have nothing to type tonight because my mind is almost at a blank at this point because when a situation gets thrown at you and you want to grasp it and take it for the ride. you can't because life likes to make certain situations difficult as shit. why is it that the one person i ended up having quite the friendship and mutual attraction towards has to be far from here. i have never once in my life experienced this and never experienced a connection to grow this fast. weird. life sure does love to throw difficult situations at you!