good fucking shit man. good fucking shit. i am HAPPY. it is a good feeling. having that talk with one of the realest guys and chillest homies was amazing. it made me realize about ALOT of shit. too much shit. but it was all shit that i needed to hear. other then shit that i was just thinking in my head. and this talk was such a... refreshing talk. i haven't had a talk like this in a minute. a good minute at that. and i feel so stupid. i was in such denial and so fucking naive. and now i know the truth. it is what it is. and there ain't shit i can or will do about it.

life is too short for bullshit. and i swear to god blog. i don't know what happened for a quick second because i swear i fell back. I FELL BACK. i fell back on to that pathetic safety blanket. that safety blanket that isn't even cozy anymore! and just a few weeks ago i felt at complete ease with my life. and i swear i got hella dumb for a second. for a SECOND. but i'm not worried about it. because i realized... alot of shit. i know what to do for sure to make myself that way and stay that way. STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM THE BULLSHIT BY ALL MEANS.

i'm going to go through life with a completely different and new perspective. a positive perspective. an independent perspective. and i'm going to do it the fucking right way.

fuck all of the bullshit. fuck all the skeezers, the liars, the woman abusers, the bitches, the faggots, and absolutely everybody who needs to be hated on. i am living my life completely above all of them. because for a second... i almost put myself as low to their level because i TOLERATED it. ugh. what the fuck right? hahaha hella dumb. i'm sick of these faggots making me sympathize for their loser asses and of course my caring ass always take them back in. but not anymore! i will now live my life to its fullest extent and fullest potential. and nobody will know about it except for the people living in it with me :]