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less then a week and i'm going to finally be out of southern california! :] yessss my great get away


this is just a thought i was thinking after a conversation i just recently had tonight. why the fuck is it that i take pain so well. and how i'm always so resilient about any shitty fucking situation. no matter how hard i hit rock bottom or how emotionally hurt i can get i always find a way to get right back within a few days time. but i must say... i have gone through alot to get this way. and i guess after every situation you always take something from it. through all of my bullshit it is always worth it in the end. ever since i hit my first rock bottom in 8th grade. ever since then hahaha thats when i figured out how to handle situations with any sort of heart break from anything losing somebody, heart break, friendships being broken, and anything that puts a strain on your heart. i think girls should know not to take it so personal. i think thats the problem with most people. they take shit too personal. hahaha. and i was talking with a person earlier. and i started thinking to myself. am i an optimist or a pessimist? i think i'm a littl ebit of both. i set myself out of the situation. observe and analyze everything and use the right judgement to the best of my ability and make the most realistic decisions as always. and sometimes the decisions i make some will say are pessimistic. and some will say its optimistic but i say its being realistic :]