oh my. what another fucking week. al;skdjfl;asdjflskadjf i hate myself sometimes. god damn fuck fuck fuck. sometimes i want to punch myself in the face for being such a fucking idiot. but this time what happened NEVER happened before. and i don't want to talk about it. cause if it were to happen again and it was for real. i don't know what i'd do!! sorry if my posts are so confusing to all of you cause i never exactly say what i'm talking about... but i guess its personal hahahaha. and i especially made this thing to rant and vent away.


als;dkflk;asdjf GOD i love my boyfriend. you know when people say love sometimes hurts? it really does. or when you love somebody SO much your heart can barely handle it that it actually hurts? yeah thats just how it is. falling in love with a person can sometimes be like falling in love with them over and over again. and when you fall, god damn do you fall. but you fall because you trust that once you fall, they won't do anything to hurt you but to pick you back up and assure you that they wouldn't hurt you. which is why you fall again. and have them be right there to catch you. i've never felt love like this before. sure i've loved before but it was never liked this. sometimes i don't know what to do with myself. but i'm so happy that we just keep understanding eachother. keep learning from eachother to keep bettering ourselves as people and for eachother. god i love my boyfriend. sorry for all of you that are single and are thinkign OMG I HATE YOU. but you know i just have to let it out :D

i love this:
"Taurus could also learn a lot and build a solid enduring bond with air sign Aquarius, however both will have to make an effort from time to time to understand each other's different world-views"

out of all 8+ astrology books i read (i'm really into astrology and i know about every single sign. and i mean EVERY single sign) they always say its a no go between a taurus and an aquarius. but after always reading about the two act i always though to myself, these people are wrong. a taurus can teach an aquarius so much in life and how not to always have their heads in the clouds or teach them how to stay grounded, and how an aquarius can teach a taurus how to just relax and let things go, not to be so stubborn, or how to just do things freely. I always knew we were compatible but you have to find the RIGHT two people that are willing to help eachother. and then one day i came across that ^ right up there. and i fucking KNEW it. and what is also weird is that austin is 4 days away from being a pisces which makes him a cusp and i'm 4 days away from being an aries. which makes us all 4 elements. and air signs which is austins sun sign goes well with fire signs my aries cusp and earth signs which is my taurus sun sign goes well with his pisces cusp which is a water sign. asl;kfdjl;aksjdf god i love astrology. and i love learning about this shit and figuring things out. its so exciting. and once you get into it. you get INTO it. and if you get real big into it, many times you can figure peoples sign out just by knowing them and realizing the way they act. and then you realize that your BEST friends or the people you trust the most or something is because they are the sign that is compatible with YOU. which is why all these ex best friends, or ex boyfriends, or people you find shady are shady because they just don't go well with your sign :D


anyways i wrote alot. good night