a;ldf;ladf so much shit has been going on in my life. its too much to type. but i finally turned 18!!! yay!! i had a really good birthday weekend and came up 500$$ and all i need is 600$$ for half my back piece tattoo. i'm so stoked. i'm kind of sad about not going to prom but honestly i have to much shit going on and money is such a struggle and i know i will possibly be a little upset about not going but honestly i've been too enough dances since my god damn freshman year. and the situation with everything and the drive is just too much for me too handle right now. i have other more important things to think and worry about and where my money should be going. but damn i guess its lame cuz it is my senior prom but its okay :]

on the other hand. i was pretty stoked to finally be 18 and buy my pack of cigarettes legally. and so i went to a place where they always card. a very common corporate gas station. and as i buy my newports. THE NIGGA DON'T EVEN CARD ME. i was a little disappointed and didn't wnat ot leave cause then they would have been like wtf... but whatever.

oh and i dyed my hair. actually i bleached it. and then put some color into it. and somebody told me i look like an asian import model. great. i look like a aZn slUT. whatever. i really want to put chunks of blonde errwhere. i'm really glad everybody seems to like it though. i'm not exactly used to it yet hahahaha. oh and during the process of the bleaching. jesus christ did my head fucking STINK AND BURN LIKE A MOTHER FUCKER. that was terrible. but it was funny cause everybody was saying BEAUTY IS PAIN! hahhahaha. i feel so girly these days its funny :] oh and i'm getting my eyebrows tattooed soon too :] yay! next is my boob job. hahhaha jk. not really. i do wnat to get one though

fuck school. so much work. first time i ever got a D on my progress report. SHIT. it'll be easy to raise though tehehe




i am madly in love. and its crazy how our relationship is only getting STRONGER. its weird by this time for many people it only gets weaker or gets boring or is bullshit. ours only get better by the days going by and stronger by the weeks going by. its so fantastic. and its amazing. we're just constantly learning new things about eachother. getting closer and closer to eachother. and he's so unbelievably close to my family its ridiculous. seriously sometimes my family backs him up and not ME in an arguement. and my sister always talks to him sometimes more then me! and my mom is nicer to him then me too sometimes. and its funny on how literally my whole family just likes austin so much. it makes me feel so happy inside cuz i know that when he comes over he knows he's a part of the family. and he really is. and i think he knows that too. we all treat eachother like we are related. buy food for eachother. help eachother out with whatever we need done. austin even cleans my house for my mom sometimes. or even me. its so funny. asjfa;ldjf;alf i love him!!!!